put a smile on your dial

in attempt to lift the mood of this blog, i've decided to start off by making a list of all the things i love right now.
i'm unsure as to whether or not this will become a regular thing, but i think that if it happens often enough, better spirits will be in existence all around.
so let's do it.

long, scalding hot showers.
forget-me-nots.
huge fuzzy slippers that render walking like a normal person impossible.
great music, such as that of the talented Boy & Bear, The Paper Kites, Agnes Obel, Jinja Safari, et cetera.
School Of Rock. for those who haven't seen it, you suck. go out and rent it and watch it. Jack Black. a bunch of adorable kids. rock music. some great one-liners.
"no you're not hardcore, unless you live hardcore. and the legend of the rent was way hardcore!"
wrapping christmas presents for other people
pina coladas
14-year friendships.
driving at 120 kph.
sleeping into whatever time i feel like.
talented 7-year-olds
shopping for baby clothes
whistling
mandolin music

the list goes on. but i'll stop there. love

dream maker, you heart breaker

your nimble fingers pluck and strum,
as melodies rise, my brain goes numb,
i cannot whistle, i can only hum,
it all feels insignificant, when i realise
how far i've yet to come.

lying back, the strings a-singing,
electricity down my back, my emotions clinging,
your eyes locked onto mine, sending my head spinning,
in unequal waves, confusion and clarity my thoughts are bringing

to my tired mind, you could say i'm an old soul,
but really i'm a mere infant, as you once called me before,
your contagious laughter erupts, your dimples appear,
i lean in to kiss one and i'm all too near,

this feeling painfully and wonderfully familiar,
i jumped right in to swim,
but now i've frozen. i watch you dozing,
how can you look so peaceful,
when my mind is a-flutter,
my headspace all clutter,
you can't tie a girl down
when she's determined to speak her heart,

i'm a fool to wear it on my sleeve,
i oft neglect my arms, and now i'm cold,
won't you share your warmth with me now,
as you did not so long ago... already it feels like an eternity.

to put it simply;
i miss you. i want it all back. please come back.

"And I bet if I had to do it all again, I'd feel the same pain"

the way i feel

"you left me feeling, tired, could not close my eyes. on fire, but frozen inside...speechless, my words could not melt. whisper, i wanted to shout. without you i felt, like a fleeting thought...like a last goodbye, like an incomplete lullaby."

"when the stars are the only things we share, will you be there?"

"I'll wait for the day when i find a way to make you mine."

"oh f*ck, he smiled at me now my heart just skipped a beat. and he listens and he makes me laugh now i'm wrapped in a blanket sheet."

i need to hear your voice
can't get you off my mind
my headspace is filled with your face
my thoughts forming tired rhymes
you hate cliches,
hate it when i generalise,
i only ever found honesty
in those intense blue eyes.
this wasn't meant to happen,
this wasn't my plan,
and as understanding as you are,
i really don't think you understand.
you're irritatingly right,
beautifully flawed,
innocently irresistable,
everything about you has me floored.
i don't want you to read this,
but you probably will,
and so again i fall short of you
in every way,
(this will make you smile your little boy grin, with those dimples i love)
ive stopped rhyming now,
you probably find my cliches painful.
please just promise me,
you'll return those dvds,
and let me return,
in some way, shape or form.
because if i could take it all back, these past hours,
with all my heart i would.