Raspberry Tartlets

i somehow feel as though a curtain has fallen between me and everything i used to know...as though i'm being distanced from my friends and family, a wall's gone up and i don't know when it did, i think i was too wrapped up in things that only matter temporarily to notice. that's sad, and i wish i could go back and do things differently. but i can't, no-one can, because time is not a friend and it won't wait around for you to catch up. clocks have always seemed sinister in my eyes, unfriendly, intimidating even. the sound of a ticking clock is a haunting one, which i've never enjoyed, and i can't sleep if i can hear that constant 'tick, tick, tick' near me, ticking away seconds and minutes and hours that i'll never get back. i seem to be caught in some kind of bubble of lethargy, drifting around as though in a dreamworld, reality never quite real, and my imagination has let me down dreadfully of late. maybe i have the mean reds...perhaps i need to just put on my sunday face and get on with it.