i like your eyebrows

i feel as though we're drifting apart. i don't know if this is good or bad. i'm scared of what the future holds, yet i can't seem to make myself feel for you anymore. it makes me sad to think we're not the same friends we used to be, and that it's happened in such a short space of time. for me, literally, it happened in a flash. one day we were best friends, the next, awkward strangers. i don't understand this and i'm not sure i want to. it's healing for me, in a way. but i don't want to lose you. are we even the same people we were what, two weeks ago? i'm not sure. "change is the one constant in our lives" its kind of ironic. we want consistency, and certainty, but we don't like change. i wish sometimes that i wasn't a creature of habit. if i were more adaptive, i'd probably feel less trapped. i said that i loved you, but has this become a past tense? i really hope not, because you've been an important person in my life for a long time, and i don't like to think what i would be had you not been there. please don't fade away...